The Devil

Apr. 26th, 2025 10:38 pm
 Of course he exists
He who keeps you in hell 
When you could be in heaven.
Who keeps you in anger 
When you could be at peace
Who keeps you in grief 
When you could be dancing in joy
Who keeps you annoyed irritated restless
Banging and bumping through life
When a gentle leaf floting through space
Now fast now slow
Altogether surrendered
You could be.
 
Of course he exists;
Just look in the mirror.
There is a joy inside
That shines and blossoms and grows and glows
It curves into a smile on the lips 
When no-one is looking. 
Will you not work for it?
 
It's there when everyone has left the room
And its there even when people are yelling
and so you smile, (and people can't yell too much).
Will you not work for it?
 
It makes you feel that they are yours
Even when they aren't
And it can make your heart break when strangers smoke.
Will you not work for it?
 
Death and the dying of beloveds
Is smothered into smallness
Thinking itself let alone worrying is too much bother.
Will you, will you not work for it,
Please? 
 Look o look!
I have met The King!
I am no more a subject of a petty fudal lord
I am no more an insignificant servant of anxiety
I am ruled now by That Which Is

Look o loooook 
I am ruled by the King
O you fool, why are you afraid?
This King Is the only one who returns you to yourself
Who refuses authority totally
And makes you independent

Look o loooook
I have Met The King
And good it is :)

Now you stupido
You meet it too
 why Should my house not be burgled
While I am away.
Or for that matter while I am bound and gaged
Or even.murdered?
And once burgled, why
Should I, not be angry? Or just dead...

Dancing
And 
Celebrating THIS life
(Not holding out for the one in my head)

I sing
Alla hu allah hu allllllllla hu!

  you who have seen the tragedy of a mighty river
Dying up in the sands

You who have felt distress at the ending of an entire childless family
Info the greying of time

Have you never,
Moved by the untimely sight 
Of a mighty banyon tree, crown dismembered,
Roots exposed, trunk lying flat on the ground
Suddenly 
Majestically
Come in alignment
With the vast workings of the Rudra hand?

Warfare is but the warped expression of humanity's eternal
fasination to unbecome

And 
Unbecoming
To become eternal.
 Lightning itself is too slow 
To reach that place 

The place thought must evaporate into, to be reborn
As omnipresent as
The omnipresent air
Breathing itself in and 
Out.

;for those who would glory- desth must lose its novelty, and repulsion
 like any stray dog
I too will die in the streets.
Unloved unwanted
Totally self sufficient 
 you have to think so much
'coz you can't trust yourself.

You can't trust yourself 
'coz you don't feel good;
You need someone or something in order to feel good.

Won't you cut the guardian knot?
Invest energy in your feelings
That anger evolves to love
Boredom to joy

No need for anything else

You simply fly
Singing 
Alighting where you please 
And moving away as required.
With no need to hold on
To the very things that seem to cause such problems 

 You were born as a prison. 
Complete with prisoner and jailor.
Recognize what I'm saying?

Something is constantly herding you, 
Proding you in this direction or that.
And something is always beating against the walls
Against this will which forever has you locked in.

Don't fool yourself 
Unless you invest significant time and energy
To recognizing this fact-
To recognizing that you are your own jailor,
That it is your own  energies that are directed against you
Masquerading as desires to be happy 
And socially acceptable 
That it is your own body which under the guise 
Of wanting to survive, and procreate,
Has stolen almost all the resources 
And keeps frittering them away

You will never be able to 
Feel free 
 Thought. All thought. Any thought.
Every thought, is <I> about </I> living. It is not living itself.
It is a story, obviously. A description.
NOT the event itself.

Are you at all bewildered then, at the perpetual discontent?
What good is a story, in which you are happy all the time?
 I don't understand it
People keep talking as if it's an objective universe.

Haven't you seen how different world is to you 
Who is a good mood
And you 
Who is a bad mood?

At all times
Nature responds to your wishes
And remember your fears are wishes to-
They are the possible futures
You believe in strongly enough 
To be reacting emotionally to already.

Never forget the different a good mood can make
And take this thought to its logical conclusion 
No matter how much hard work it takes
Your mother tongue is touch
But society has made you male or female,
So now you can't speak it naturally, normally automatically.
 
Your mother tongue is sight
But society has taught you vowels and consonants and gutteral stops. 
So now you can't look and understand unless like a computer you are given the correct keywords in the correct, inoffensive syntax.
 
Complexity can't be sustained except through exceptions. Through learnt separations between object and subject.
 
But this is why your mother tongue,
Is simplicity itself. 
 
 
 Heart sadness, is the only kind for me
Its the only kind that lets me transcend it.
Its the only kind that comes and then goes, leaving nothing behind but a clean emptiness
which quickly turns to joy

After experimentations with many other kinds of sadness
such as denial-of-sadness-sadness, and distract-myself-from-sadness-sadness
as well as i-dont-like-sadness-but-what-to-do-sadness dont really work for me-
those  bastard kinds of sadness have as their un-acknowledged father- fear

But Heart sadness. Oh i cant sing its praises enough!
Its father is fearlessness and its mother practicality aka Mz. Whatever--works.
Nothing more powerful. So often it takes with it, after it feels you have spent sufficient time with it
all those thoughts that invited it in the first place.
all those beliefs telling you that you are sad.
that you are right and it is necessary to be sad.

Kind of like drinking salt water to inducing vomiting
it comes out and takes everything else unpleasant with it!
 Nobody wants freedom.
what a strange realization to wake up to
and an obvious one.

We all want strings tied to ourselves
which we can then fight against and feel love towards
We call them relationships
and they are the stuff of containment.

we want there to be someone
who will get worried if we dont call 
putting pressure on us to conform

we want to be told how to be
'tis not something we put up with 
for the privilege of telling others how to be.
It is something we want for ourselves
deep within
because else,
we would not know who we are
or if we exist at all;
if nobody cares for us, the fear is
I would not be!

I have fooled you into this mindset, friend
Along with everybody including yourself 
You would not be anything in particular
but there is no way to stop existing.


 All along I thought I was this matter
Which any stick could come and break
But I never once wondered what matter itself was!
#feelingfoolish

 clearly, at some point 
Something came out of nothing. 
Don't bother telling me it doesn't make sense, hell gravity
The idea that these things sitting there with no connection are pulling each to their self, makes no sense.
It is the way it is though. Believe it or not.

Clearly, at some point
Something came out of nothing.
Whether you believe in the big bang or 
The much more indisputable fact that you are now,
With no knowledge of what/if you were before you,in fact, were.

So now that we have established this obviousness 
Why dont you find some way of telling me
Why you think you are something
It's passing strange, that these things you think you are
Are constantly changing and yet you think
With each new thing
That behold! This thing I am!

It's much more probable, don't you think,
That you are the sentient space
Which has given birth to this illusion of thought 
And having given birth
Is pretending to be the illusory child.

Where is matter anyway? 
Have you found it outside your thoughts?


 Tis not the nature of life to 
Even for one ever lasting moment 
Be still
Tis a measure  of how anti life 
Anti-the-very-life-that-he/she-is
That humanity requires this
Sustained measure of focus.
A few minutes and im done

And it seems to me
If you are not
Then you are not looking at what is
But are only looking at this fixed idea in your head
Projected out into this non extant world

 Actually in this sense, it's like casteism.
The oppressors run around setting up committees-
And drawing salaries.
Appointing other savarnas to finding out why no resources
Have in reality gotten to the oppressed.

In this way
In this way and no other
We try and fix our unhappiness.
As the part that wants to "do something" about it,
Were not just stealing all the resources from the part that is unhappy!

All you have to do
Is quit.
And see - once you are out of the way
There will be no need for governing
Automatically your body will allocate energy to that which is sub-optimal
And joy will grow where before there was only darkness

 Basically, you experience yourself as a selecting
A thought, a set of sensory perceptions
In any given moment you are thus defined, in your own head.

But truth be told... You are not this focus
Narrow and bigoted

An entire stream running amock
Unable to rest long enough to identify 
To even stop, pause, or say "I"
Such is the experience in terms which you will understand
Of free uncensored will
 What seems like willful blindness
Is the beginning.
Picture a new born with its eyes still closed.

But when you open your eyes
If you do

Non of the opinions and requirements you look at life through
Will, obstructing your view,
Keep you with your fists up.. In fighting mode 
With anything at all

 We have access only to the stories we tell ourselves.
What kind of idiots are we, that these stories we tell ourselves so often make us unhappy!!?
It seems to me that we must be intrinsically unhappy to be so obdurate in selecting the stories that make us further unhappy, given the huge scope and incredible pallet to chose from; that this world is.

Indeed perhaps the only reason we are telling ourselves stories is that there is something making us uncomfortable when, even for half a moment, we stop. 
But what then? What if, we stop anyway.. If only to take stock of what it is that is in fact (and not in the fantasies we tell ourselves) making us uncomfortable, afraid, unhappy.
Will we not have, at the very least, stopped making ourselves further unhappy with this the end of telling ourselves unhappy stories?