Part 2 of the "You know this, you really do." Series

[nh4ever]

All these things you do
could you live without?

Listen
you already know this is true
You keep doing these things
and blaming things not done
for your dissatisfaction
always restless
actively seeking things to do
places to improve
people to change
Simply because you are afraid.

Afraid of what you think you are
And so your thinking keeps pinching you
as if every time you went to sit down
you punched yourself
and now afraid of pain,
keep looking for excuses
to avoid relaxation.

Why are you so afraid
of being a failure
which you have assumed a person is
unless he has a million dollars
or fits these words
'good', 'kind', and 'hardworking'.

Afraid of being alone
as if the demons
which the bullies
God/society/parents/friends and teachers
told you
are always watching
will come and eat you
if you remain as you are
without constantly striving to achieve or become
that which they told you to.

Afraid of silence
as if you might accidentally hear
those things you don't want to think
of your own dissatisfaction with the way you are.

Boredom is just an excuse
to distract yourself from the lies causing ill-feeling
you have accepted as the truth

Simply give up
and see the truth
no matter what you do
the way you feel
is determined by what you think.
What need to do then?
before you let yourself feel good?
Let someone else carry the burden
of value systems insisting that you become someone else
And anger
and heartbreak
that you were not given that which you don't need in the first place.

All these things you pursue
could you live without?

You know this, you really do.